heartbreak versus heartbreak

i was running the other day in what was the perfect weather for my mood: grey skies and ceaseless light rain. even with the rhythm of my steps to my soundtrack playlist, my thoughts still drowned out the music.  i was remembering and thinking about heartbreak, not mine, but of my closest friends.  i actually know a few of my girls who are broken right now, and because of how big my heart is, i felt as though i were going through their pain with them.  i wish i could. that's just how i am, i care a little too much, and would take any heart pain away from anyone in a second.  i don't like to be sad or heartbroken, but i hate it even more when i see a friend going through it, especially if i can relate to the situation. in one way or another, though, we can all relate, because we have ALL been there. it sucks. it's sad. it hurts. it takes a really long time to get to the point where one is okay hearing about how he's doing or running into him unexpectedly.  in the aftermath, you just want to pretend it never happened, that it couldn't have happened to you, and that you'll know exactly what you'd say or do when you see him again.  haha nope. doesn't work like that. taking time to actually heal, is the only way it will happen. 

i believe with all my heart and from experience that jesus christ is the only one who can heal the deep pains in the soul.  he heals you through his love, through his word, and through people that he places in your life.  if you allow him too, he turns the greatest sorrows into joy, but it's not easy. a lot of the pain you feel is from the mistakes you made in the relationship, how much you changed what you believe to hang on to the perfect guy, or any other sin that you struggled with during that time. you can only listen to sad music for so long before you realize that what you need is to allow jesus to restore and renew your heart.  in isaiah 43:1 we are given a title that moves us to falling into jesus' arms instead of sad music, alcohol, drugs, sex, or lies: "but now, thus says the lord, who created you, o jacob, and he who formed you, o israel: “ fear not, for I have redeemed you; i have called you by your name; you are mine."  isn't that exactly what we want? to be somebody's? to know that someone wants you and only you for themselves, only so they can love you?  "you are MINE" says the lord. i am reduced to cold chills and tears.  his promise of redemption was paid through the blood of his son, so that we could belong to him forever, through all our sins, flaws, and mistakes.

"and being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross" (philippians 2:8). here comes the heartbreak, again. when we are saddened or pained in our heart from any kind of broken relationship, jesus only desires that we allow him to love us. that's it. we don't have to die an excruciating and horrific death on a wooden cross for us to be able to be with him forever. his son did it for us.  it truly does break your heart all over again, right? except this time there are tears of joy instead of pain. heartbreak vs. heartbreak. 

i originally wanted to just post sad song lyrics as a shout out to my girls in this post, because honestly, it's ok to feel sadness. however, i thought it better to reassure my girls of the hope of turning sadness into joy (isaiah 61:3) with important words of encouragement. and okay i have to post music too, because it's my thing. i love you all my sweet friends!

Heartbreak vs. Heartbreak