characters: me and jesus
setting: breakfast on a sunny friday morning and my "happy" playlist (you are the best thing, everybody knows, sweet pea, la vie en rose, moon river, hey soul sister, three little birds, who says...etc awesome playlist)
today is going to be good. oh yeah. i have taken my early morning shower, gotten dressed, fixed my hair, and i managed to not wake the kids up before they were supposed to! the smallest accomplishments never cease to amaze me. jenny has taken the kids to school, the sun is shining, and the greatest part about this moment is that i have a mango. a mango i have been saving/hiding for a week and a half, and when i checked this morning, i knew it was time. because i live in such a cold country, i didn't think waiting until the mango was ripe would actually make a difference in the flavor. oh. OH. i was wrong. i peeled and sliced that baby open and a little piece of heaven shown down...you know the kind where the sun actually shines visible rays through the window of the house and a choir starts to sing in the background? yep. a little piece of heaven. that mango had the most beautiful sweetness to it that i couldn't stop thinking about it all morning. i don't think i've ever actually tasted a mango that ripe and pure! it was amazing! i had a relationship with this mango and you know what? it was worth the wait.
yes, this one is for my ladies, and yes, this is about love, fairytales, and waiting on the lord for true love.
i grew up watching disney movies, princesses, always believing that every girl deserves to find prince charming. i still believe that now. it's not cliche, it's not stupid, it's real.
in my personal relationship with jesus, i have always believed that he has prince charming picked out for me, and all i have to do is wait (patiently) for jesus to place him in my life. however, this is extremely hard to do, trusting that the lord will let me know when it's the right guy at the right time, especially when i want to fall in love NOW, just to be able to have that "feeling." but it is really worth it in the end? because what usually happens is we doubt our hearts, who we are in the lord, and end up changing what we believe to try to make this guy fit in our life. and then we realize that we've settled for less than what god has already designed, and all that's left is a little hole in our hearts that only jesus can fill, not another guy, not shopping, and not ice cream. i know this from making some stupid decisions for the past 2 years, allowing myself get caught up in a whirlwind of love and emotions. but what i realized is that i wasn't pursuing my relationship with my lord, which has resulted in me being blindsided by satan's lies. the sad part is, it happens time and time again, and i forget about the one who stole my heart from the very start, the one who aches for me to run to him, instead of a "feeling." but the best part about having jesus steal your heart, is that no matter how many times you run away, he "...will [always]allure her, will bring her into the wilderness, and speak comfort to her..." (hosea 2:14). he'll always bring my heart back to life. something i will never understand, for i am completely undeserving of that love.
i'm not going to pretend that waiting for the right guy is easy, because everything in this evil world tells us to give yourself and heart away to just a "feeling" and even just for the heck of it. but my renewed love for my lord, tells me to hang on to the fairytale concept. i have even sat back and watched fairytales unfold in front of me with some of my closest friends, all because they ignored satan's lies and waited, some for a very long time, for their prince charming, and they all have beautiful marriages that are wrapped in god's love. again, it's a commitment and not easy, but the outcome is joy, love, peace, goodness...etc. i have also witnessed many relationships go down in flames because they settled and compromised themselves. i have to say that i have always had a habit of running from committments, but i like to think that it is because my heart is not ready. i still have more waiting to do, more ripening to do, like my mango, in my relationship with my lord. and then he'll let me know.
"To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven..."
(ecclesiastes 3:1)
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